To think back 12 weeks ago, I was still pregnant and didn't even know what joys laid ahead. Then to skip to now, I can't imagine my life without him. I think back to this journey that I took, trying to get him here. All I know that it was all worth it, and I wouldn't change a damn thing, cause he is the most precious boy ever. I may be a bit biased, but isn't every mom about their child. To even say I have a son is just something I never thought I would be saying and feel how I do. I know already that I am going to give him my everything, and be the best mom that I can be. I will try and learn from my past, and be better for him, than I had it. I already know that it is better. I look forward to the months ,and years ahead of us. To see how he grows and learns. He already has done so many amazing things. From day one, he was trying to hold his head up, which we thought was awesome, since he was a newborn. Then I knew he was going to have strong legs, since he would kick me very hard from the inside. I was right, the kid has some strong legs, the doc even comments about his strength, when he sees him. He's been growing at a perfect rate, and we haven't had any problems with him. He's even started on some pureed foods already. Which may seem early to some, but he's been handling them just fine. He LOVES bananas. In a couple weeks, I am going to expand his pallet and try some more things like squash, green beans, pears, carrots, and more. I have a feeling he is going to love all of those as well. He's our little chubbs as we call him. Mainly due to his chubby cheeks, that I passed down to him. Your welcome my son. :) He is a GREAT sleeper. Since the moment he came home, he slept and slept, and we thought it would pass, but it didn't. He loves his sleep, just like me. We sleep in all the time, and he loves his naps. Mainly loves when he can sleep on my chest, and fall asleep cuddling me. One of my favorite times. I am going to miss those during the day also. He loves standing and walking, which is so odd for an almost 3 month old, but he was doing that since 6-8wks old. We feel that he is going to be above the curve on walking, and skip the whole crawling. He doesn't like tummy time as much, he rather be sitting or standing. LOL that is ok , but I am sure we will have our hands full when he does eventually get moving around.
I know there will be so many more memories and experiences to come. I look forward to them all.
It is going to be very hard on Tuesday and i am preparing myself now. I know I can't wait for the nights at home after work. Not that they weren't great before, but they will be all that much sweeter now. Will has brought so much joy and happiness to our daily lives. Just seeing his smiling face in the morning is good enough for me. I love being a mom, and I look forward to the day he says mommy. I know it will melt my heart. I really don't know how a parent doesn't just love their child from the minute they come into this world, and want to be and do everything for them that they can. I am sure I have many challenges ahead, but I dont care. I look forward to all of them, good or bad. That is what makes us human.
Tomorrow we are headed to the zoo. I can't wait to enjoy my last day of my summer, before I go back to hell. I am so glad I got a chance to have this time off, thanks to my job and my husband for his support as well. It has been a blessing that not all people get a chance to do. I can't wait for Halloween, Thanksgiving, and Xmas this year. All the first holidays for Will, and many more. But the first holidays should be fun, and make them even better for us, trying to show him a good time.
I had a great time spending the summer w/ friends and family. Will and I did a lot of fun things, and went to a lot of fun places. Concerts, Malls, Downtown, Parks, etc. It has only just begun, and I can't wait to do more things with him as he gets older. He is my little angel, and I wouldn't change a thing. I know he has many great people around him, aunts and uncles who will be there through it all.
